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missumysu
Champion
Posts:1
 | | 10/01/2007 1:52 AM |
| | I have never experienced any type of personal death.
We had her since a baby, she was my baby for 15 years.
sigh
We had to place her down sept 25th/07 at 6:00.
I can't get the picture out of My head, how we had to bring her to the vets. How it all took place, having to hold her down to allow them to shave her leg, to prepare for the needles. Never experienced this before, so never knew what came next, everything was so fast, they never gave us more time to make her feel it was ok, after the shaving. then in one needle then the next, I was behind her head, so she did not see me.
I hope she heard my whispers, as she was not the best at hearing.
I don't want her mad at me, I don't feel her presence which realy bothers me, as I'm normally pretty good with other types of presences. I want her to be here.
In the last three days before she was put down, she lost feelings of her hind legs, they were like paralized.
She draged herself with her front legs around the house, 99 percent of the time I would carry her to the spot she wanted to be. She even allowed us to hold her back legs up so she could go to the bathroom outside.
She showed us no pain signs, she was a trooper that way, which makes it even harder to handle, that she held in all her pain for us, and still wagged her tail.
Then I wonder if I even did the right thing.
Where is she, how come I can't feel her peace.
15 is a long time, this I know, however negitive what-if's keeping comming into my head.
Then I was looking so forward in picking up her ashes on Sat.
Well Sat came and went.
They still did not have My babies remains, they told me to call Sun, I did,
What? still no sign of My Su, call Mon they say now!
I'm really confused by this.
Now so many things are going around in My head.
Wondering if they even sent the right papers with her to get her remains back?
are they going to give me different remains of another pet?
I just don't get it!
Is there realy a place our loved ones go right away when they pass? how do I know. I want that peace.
I cut some hair from my Su on her last day, now I'm thinking to Myself when I recieve her remains or if I do, can I get it anilized to make sure it's her?
I know there are so many others out there that have lost their best friends, My heart goes out to you all. | | | |
| LASSIE47
Best of Breed
Posts:281
| | 10/01/2007 6:35 PM |
| | so sorry about your loss. Im sure she knew she was loved . Keep happy thoughts of the time you had together .. God Bless Helen | | | |
| rodo
Best of Breed
Posts:298
| | 10/02/2007 10:51 AM |
| | HI miss you,
I know what you mean. My lab Mindy got sick sunday. I hope she pulls thu.
keeping you inmy thoughts
rodo | | | |
| elesimp
Champion
Posts:106
| | 10/02/2007 3:01 PM |
| | Blessings to heal your pain and may you have only good memories of your Su.
Prayers, elesimp | | | |
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