Just about an hour and a half ago, another one of my babies has died- one of my guinea pigs, Wayne.. There has just been this horrible spree of my 'pets' (my babies/fuzzies) dying. In just a span of a few months I have had four baby cockatiels, one adult cockatiel, two budgies, and five guinea pigs die, each of different (unpreventable) issues (besides the baby cockatiels that were just too weak to live.) It has been so hard, and sadly, what has killed Wayne now is that each time one of my other fuzzies has died, he would get horribly depressed, and each time, he took it harder.. Just on the 11th, I had to have my guinea pig, Llyere, put to sleep, as she had advanced breast cancer, and had started to hemmorage- and her death was just the last death that Wayne could handle. Immediately after she died, he got depressed, (as usual after one has died,) but then, he went downhill, and stopped eating, and I was having to force-feed him every few hours, but he was just dying of grief.. I miss them all so badly, and I wish so much that this spree of my babies dying (and nearly dying) would just stop- I haven't even had the chance to even begin getting over one death before yet another dies, and so many of them have been needing constant care before their deaths (hand/force-feeding, giving medication, daily bathing, etc.) and it's just so difficult losing them, especially after giving them so much love and care, but nothing seems to help. And also, all of my birds have now been exposed to Proventricular Dilation Disease which they might have, as it's a horrible, contagious, incurable, and always fatal disease birds can get, and I have multiple fuzzies that are old, and or have medical issues.. And it makes it harder that every time someone asks about how many fuzzies I have, I still say 'eleven cockatiels, three parakeets, two rabbits, seven guinea pigs, and four baby cockatiels' when it's really just 'ten cockatiels, one parakeet, two rabbits, and two guinea pigs.' It still hasn't entirely clicked for me that I have lost *so* many of them, but then when I think about it, it nearly makes me break down crying just realizing *how* many I have lost, and in such a short period of time. |